April 2012
48 posts
I would not speak of this dilemma if it were only mine, but I watch many others race again and again through the cycle of widening concern, frenzied effort, and exhaustion. Whatever the source of conscience—parents, God, solemn books, earnest friends, the dictates of biology—it is adapted to a narrower space than the one we inhabit. Limited to a small tribe or a community of a few hundred people, conscience may prompt us to serve others in a balanced and wholesome way. But when television and newspapers and the Internet bring us word of dangers by the thousands and miseries by the millions and needful creatures by the billions; when pleas for help reach us around the clock; when aching faces greet us on every street—then conscience either goes numb or punishes us with a sense of failure.
I often lie awake at night, rehearsing the names of those I’ve disappointed by failing to give them all they asked. I don’t say this to make myself out as a generous soul. I am hardly that; I feel defenseless rather than virtuous. The truth is that I’ve come to fear the claims that other beings make on me, because their numbers grow relentlessly. I wish to love my neighbor, but the neighborhood has expanded so far, and the neighbors have become so many, that my love is stretched to the breaking point. I’m tempted to run away, beyond reach of the needy voices. So I make of this hut a hiding place.
” —Stillness | Scott Russell Sanders | Orion Magazine (via ayjay)M83 - Raconte-Moi Une Histoire
“Do you want to play with me? We can be a whole group of friends. We can be a whole group of frogs!! … Jumping and laughing forever.”
I set this to loop and have been designing to it all day.
Business voice: Nigella has one on her blog that a reader submitted. It’s basically the one I use.
Spitting-milk-out-my-nose-laughing voice: GURL! We has GOT to have some of the same chromosomes! Seriously, can I come over?
**edit**
The recipe doesn’t mention it, but garnishing your finished product with lemon zest adds instant fancy points.
I’m making this pound cake sometime this weekend. And adopting Molly as my writing role model. Just consider the following sentence: “Like a proper pound cake, it’s firm and buttery, but it gets a gentle lift from the citrus, both in flavor and in fragrance, and then, behind it, there comes the deep, toasty, rumbling flavor of the pistachios.”
This week’s offering was exquisite. Enjoy.
…and I have already forgiven George R. R. Martin for everything I ever held against him. These books are so terrifically perfect for me to be reading right now.
they’re off early in the morning. Sad but happy.
“Back to You”by Greg Laswell
“Once and for all it’s like this
All that I am and have these days
can all be traced back to you.”
My neighborhood is changing! Suspicious, hopeful, scared, unsure…
Again, I find myself delighted by the weekly offering from Ted Kooser. This one, “Prairie Sure,” by Carol Light, reminded me of how rooted my family is and has been in the midwest, something I don’t often think about.
DeVotchKa - “We’re Leaving”
How to Find the Underworld
Enter the serpent’s mouth, and sadness will walk
in you like a pilgrim through the desert.
The descent feels something like your devotion
to empty rooms, and something like a ladder.
There are demons, of course, and stone owls
on the entrance to frighten away crows.
If you go deep enough you will recognize the dead
by their sins. Hornets and forsaken children attend them.
Be careful. Your heart will testify against itself.
The daughter who approaches you is not the one
you lost. The quarantined infants rocked in cradles
made from the twisted rib cages of horses
do not hold her either. I would spare you anything
but this—her first word was for her father,
and her last word was one of God’s names.
You can’t bring her back. You can’t bring back
anything from here that you want to keep. Only grief
and a new obedience and four pounds of ash.
—from Traci Brimhall’s newly published poetry collection Our Lady of the Ruins, winner of the 2011 Barnard Women Poets Prize
(via wwnorton)